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Saturday, October 29, 2005

*OG IS HELL*

29/10/05
11.25pm

haha.. as u can see frm the topic ar.. OG is not a place for rens to work.. haha.. it is god damn lonely if u r alone.. no 1 toks to u.. BUT it can oso be god damn busy if u r alone.. everything comes to u.. can u get mi? hi how much is this? wah.. headache.. plus i not beri familiar wif the closing.. so i gt jayce to guide mi on the phone.. end up every 1 waiting for mi.. lights off.. silent everywhere.. but overall today sales is gd.. cos OG is having a 20% sales storewide.. but for us is using the rebate vouchers..

today the self-claim cutest gal n su ping came down n haf dinner wif mi.. haha.. *gan dong* saw desmond on the way hm.. he went to chiong.. where am i? staying at hm on a FRIDAY NITE.. zzz.. haix.. looking forward to nex wk.. MY BROS!!! haha.. shall end here.. tv shall be my company tonite.. haha..

all i wan is a "i love u" frm u.. jus once.. will be enough..

maRcUs` (",)

| yawns @ 11:39 PM|

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Thursday, October 27, 2005

*tiring day*

26/10/05
12.05pm

If a girl cries in front of you,
it means that she couldnt take it anymore.
If you take her hand,
she would stay with you for the rest of ur life.
If you let her go,
she couldnt go back to being herself anymore.

A girl wont cry easily,
except in front of the person whom she loves the most,
she becomes weak.
A girl wont cry easily,
only when she love u the most,
she put down her ego.

Guys,
if a girl cries becos of you,
please hold her hands firmly,
cos she's the one who is willing to stay with you for the rest of your life.

Guys,
if a girl cries becos of you,
please dont give her up,
maybe becuz of your decision,
you ruin her life.

When she cry right in front of you,
when she cry becuz of you,
Look into her eyes,
Can you see and feel the pain n hurt she's feeling?

Think....
Which other girl have cried with pure sincerity,
In front of you,
And becuz of you?
She cries not becos she is weak,
She cries not becuz she wants sympathy or pity,

She cries....
because crying silently is no longer possible..
The pain, hurt and agony have become too big a burden to be kept inside.

Guys...
Think about it,
If a girl cry her heart out to you.
And all because of you,
Its time to look back on wad you have done.
Only you will know the answer to it.

Do consider it,becuz one day,
It may be too late for regrets.
It may be too late to say...
"I'm sorry".

Dont do this to a girl.
You may regret for the rest of ur life.
Maybe in your life,
she's the only one...
who loves u the most.

- taken frm someone blog, i would like to share wif u guys -

maRcUs` (",)

| yawns @ 12:11 AM|

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Wednesday, October 26, 2005

*great day*

26/10/05
1.30am

haha.. my topic says it all.. first of all.. happy birthday to michell n my mei mei, peng!!!
today was my off day.. been slping my way through.. once awake.. the dinner ready.. den vcds vcds all the way until 12am.. haha.. wat a busy day.. tired.. going back to slp soon.. hee.. tml will be another great day ahead for mi.. working afternoon.. jayce n zi guo.. song.. hee.. feng liao..

maRcUs` (",)

| yawns @ 1:15 AM|

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Monday, October 24, 2005

*panda on my lap*

24/10/05
1.00am

compared the date of this entry n previous 1.. haha.. i am such a lazy bum.. haha.. but lazy is 1 of my character.. too bad.. first of all.. happy 19th birthday to jia wei..
hey.. my enlistment letter has arrived.. within months i will be BALD.. damn.. i hate it.. den qns starts coming into my mind.. will i makes fren there? will i feel lonely? haix.. it doesn't matter if the trainings will be tough anot.. cos i wish for a betta built body.. =x wanted to go in silently but she learn of it liao.. came over to my hse last nite and i pop the qns to her again.. failedddd... damn.. y can't i deserve a 2nd chance? until now doesn't she noe hu treat her the best? i am jux too tired.. i tink for days b4 i pop the qns to her this time.. cos i am beri sure of wat i wan.. i jus dowan to regret but.. i wish i some 1 could hit me hard in the head ar.. i know i am not like him.. sweet talking is not my cup of tea in fact i dun even noe how.. i sux at it.. f**k
why must u start to contact mi when i am already starting to gif u up? i am such a failure.. i jus wan to tk care of u.. be there for u wheneva u nid mi.. makes u luff when u r down.. loves u wif all my heart.. it is so hard? i tink i shld really carry on wif life.. love makes mi sick n tired..
abt my work.. there is a bit of reshufflement going on rite now.. plus the cctv going to be install on some stores.. makes mi feeling a bit sianx working.. but.. i heard i will be taking over charlie when his skooling starts.. which means.. i am GETTING OUT of j8.. haha.. no cctvs.. *phew.. cy starting to teach mi sell thru n some reports.. ji tao figures r driving mi nuts.. lols.. i jus hope OG wun be so busy.. tt all i am wishing.. haha..
here a song which i loves the lyrics..

Nickelback - Photograph
Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red
And what the hell is on Joey's head?
This is where I grew up
I think the present owner fixed it up
I never knew we ever went without
The second floor is hard for sneakin' out
And this is where I went to school
Most of the time had better things to do
Criminal record says I broke in twice
I must've done it half a dozen timesI wonder if it's too late
Should I go back and try to graduate?
Life's better now than it was back then
If I was them I wouldn't let me in
Oh, oh, oh...Oh, God I...
Every memory of lookin' out the back door
I have the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walkin' out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was lookin' for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbyeRemember the old arcade?
Blew every dollar that we ever made
The cops hated us hangin' out
They said somebody went and burned it down
We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we know
We said someday we'd find out how it feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel
Kim's the first girl I kissedI was so nervous that I nearly missed
She's had a couple of kids since then
I haven't seen her since God knows when
Oh, oh, oh...Oh, God I...
Every memory of lookin' out the back door
I have the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walkin' out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was lookin' forIt's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
I miss that town, I miss the faces
You can't erase, you can't replace it
I miss it now, I can't believe it
So hard to stay, too hard to leave it
If I could relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change
Every memory of lookin' out the back door
I have the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walkin' out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was lookin' forIt's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
Every time I do it makes me...

nice rite? haix.. i beri long nv sings liao.. itchy ar.. I WAN TO GO KTV!!! haha..
ai gei le ni
wo bu hou hui
zhi xi wan ni gei wo yi ci ji hui

maRcUs` (",)

| yawns @ 12:59 AM|

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Thursday, October 13, 2005

*Scratching my head..*

13/10/05
12.30am

listening to sylvester - suo yi rite now.. it is a beri nice hor.. i like the lyrics, it is beri meaningful. the part "zhe shi ai qing hai shi ni tai mei li" haix.. maybe i shld ask myself tt.. beri confused.. half of mi wans her back badly.. the other half asks mi to put down.. all i can say is tt she is the first gal to make mi feel i will spent my rest of life wif.. i noe she is still waiting for him.. but y can't she open her eyes n look ard.. hu is betta? u noe how mux pain it is to c ur fren wif ur gal.. he promise mi tt he will tk care of her, love her.. but in e end? 2 wks.. tt all.. gone.. n now? she waiting for him.. 2 wks onli.. n she is like tis.. wat abt mi.. 10 mths.. shld i sucide? haix.. i wan to change topic.. these few days i am doing gd.. jus tt sudden mood swing la.. after tk a look at our pics.. the pics she cropped n named.. xiang hui dao guo qu.. working kills time lor.. gt myself nano and a new hp.. almost used up all my resources.. jia lat.. eating grass this few days.. any money to spare mi? lols.. *yawns* i am tired..

There was a old man sitting on a bench outside the mall. A young man walked who had spiked hair that was orange, yellow, green and red. The old man just looked at him. The young man said '' What's the matter old man? Haven't you ever done anything crazy in your life? '' And the old man said ''Well actully I have. I once got drunk and had sex with a parrot. I was just wandering if you were my son.''

Do not make any promise if u cant fufil..

maRcUs` (",)

| yawns @ 12:33 AM|

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Thursday, October 06, 2005

*Playing With My 2 Kids*

05/10/05
12.40am

i am back.. i miss u blog.. i really do.. haha.. i gt i gt alot alot of of things things to to tell tell you you.. but not tonite.. i am dead tired.. i shall tell u tml.. here a joke to cheer those hu r unhappy..

Ah Beng went for a job interview for a sales job. When the manager saw Ah Beng's colourful attire, his mind is shouting, "Not this man!!" However, he still had to entertain Ah Beng.

Therefore,he told Ah Beng, "If u can form sentence using the words i gave you,then I will give you a chance! The words are'Green,Pink,Yellow,Blue,White,Purple,Black.'

Ah Beng thought for a while and said, "I heard the phone go Green,Green, and then i went to Pink up the phone and said, Yellow?Blues that?White did you say? Aiyah, wrong number. Do not Purplely disturb people and do not call Black, ok? You kena sai."

No further questions.He got the job.

maRcUs (",)

| yawns @ 12:57 AM|

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